I stil dont know what to do with Mary Kay. I think im just going to tell her that im going to hold off on the whole thing and try to get a place then maybe sometime down the road try it. Im just so scatter brained right now with work and trying to find a place, and family and stuff its ridiculous.

I think im gonna do lay down and watch death note again.

Melody

So i joined Mary Kay and i am now an Independent beauty consultant. So thats strange huh?

Melody

Im about to leave for work so ill make this short...

Im looking at an apartment on Saturday and i think that i can afford it if Adam helps buy food.
Today will suck because i have to work with Mary and not Lynn like i planned.
Im excited to go to dinner with Kristen about Mary Kay tomorrow, i think that i might actually do this.
I cant wait for Red Sox on Friday because i get the day off!!!!

ttyl.

Today was friday but as fridays usually are, it  totally sucked! Theres always too much to do, i usually see patients all morning and have to catch up and do my Friday cleaning, which isnt much but still its time consuming. Im tired of feeling like everyones bitch too, all i get is "can you do me a favor", no thank you's or anything i do everything they say and get nothing. Gail did help me out today though, she did a call list for me and started washing the BP cuffs for me so im happy that she was there.

I want to have a doctor but i dont think that ill ever get one because of how good i am at what i do. I run around like a crazy person all day and want to kill someone by the end, but i take it all because i know that the MD's appreciate what i do. Im getting kinda used to being around really sick people, although im waiting for one of the patients that i really care about to get really bad cause i dont know how good ill be then. I guess time will tell all.

Im going to watch Bleach and eat my candy bar....

Work was ok, tomorrow will probably suck cause Mary's there but im trying not to let her get to me. She thinks shes better then everyone else and she sucks at her job so thats the problem. Im getting my nails filled tonight and maybe going to the gym for a bit after. Probably just go on the treadmill for a bit. I dont know how long ill be at the salon probably not too long. I have to get a gift for our NP for her baby shower. I dont know what to get her im gonna wait till after her family shower this weekend to see what she gets.

Im gonna go be productive.

So i officially like secretaries day! We all got checks for 100 bucks today! I couldnt believe it. But im going to see Adam tonight and get my nails done tomorrow after work so that should be nice.

I hate my job, i cant help but feel like no one cares. I think that they dont notice how much work i actually do. They suck thats all i can say.

I have so much going on in the next month or so, Red Sox on 5-2, Jens baby shower 5-17, Carlies wedding on 5-31, and we're supposed to have a company dinner somewhere in there. Its nice that im keeping busy but at the same time i wish i had my weekends to myself. I still need to get the pictures of my car taken. I cant believe that i havent done that yet. Especially after having an accident less then 3 months ago.

Im apartment searching too, but i need to find something that i can afford on my own pretty much, its weird that i dont care if Adam helps me pay i just want to get a place so bad that i dont care.

Gotta go, rabbits hungry!

So i guess ill start over, I havent posted in like 2 years, but im going to keep up now that i dont have school anymore.

My allergies suck and their starting to kill me know. Im feeling like crap but it sunday so at least i dont have to deal with my co workers!!

Ill post more later....

Mel

So its been along time....

My final grades where really good, i got A's in both classes and maintained deans list. So next semester starts in less than one week, lets see if i can do it again....this should be fun. I dunno if i posted my classes or not but i'm taking sociology, abnormal psych, intro to human disease, and keyboarding (i know its stupid but its a pre rec). I'm kinda looking forward to school so i can work less and not be at big y as much, my job is turning into high school all over again. I'm trying to get another job though, i applied at the hospital, its been about 3 weeks so i'm gonna call them today. If not there i wanna get a job that is kinda easy, so it wont take up too much time.

I updated my myspace account today, i have almost 30 friends...lol...but i gotta go take a shower...cya later....

Okay, i feel better now. My finals are over and i know i did well on them. I'll probably end up with a b+/A- in both classes, so i'll make the deans list again which is good for my fiancial aid. Now i can relax and enjoy the holidays, other than work, its smooth sailing all the way through. I just wanna do nothing for the rest of the day. But Adam and i have to go up to the holyoke mall and get his dads gift. That is when he finishes his final, i'm waiting for him in the library.
I got an application at the hospital the other day and its looking better averyday. Work sucked yesterday, i cant believe how much of a mess that department is. And its getting annoying how much i have to clean up after my manager. The customers are getting wicked annoying too. I cant stand the words "is it too late to place a cake order for tomorrow", and then they tell me how sorry they are about the short notice, when they really arent, all they care about is getting the stupid kid their cake, which shouldnt matter because they waited so long to plan the party. I've said it before and i'll say it hundreds of times-- I HATE MY JOB!!
I gotta go do other things....cya!!

Alot has happened since i posted last.
Yesterday alone i dropped A+P abd finally applied to the medical assitant program...i'll know in April whether or not i'm in. I dropped A+P because i got i 58 on my first test and i got a 42 on the one i took on monday, there was no going back... i never would have been able to bring my grade up to one that was satisfactory. I talked to Prof. Pentegill, shes my med term prof, and she said that she would rather see a 'w' on my application than an 'f'. It was great to get to talk to her b/c shes on the medical assistant dept staff. She talked about classes and things too, it was great to hear about what she thought. I walked into class yesterday and a couple of the girls had enrolled in A+P for next semester and she was advissing them to not take certain profs. Leslie is one that i would have killed, hes so much worse than Carey, at least Carey cares, Leslie could give a crap less. But it was funny that they were talking about it.
We read this story in English called "Wit", its about Vivian a 50 year old english prof that teaches 17th century poetry and how she finds out that she has stage 4 ovarian cancer. The story is her stay in the hospital during treatment. Its a neat story. I really got into because Vivians character changes so much during it. At the end she wills her self to die because she can take the pain anymore, the woman went through 8 full dose treatments and she cancer is spreading and her kidneys are failing and she cant eat and its horrible. I'm writing my paper on this story, comparing it to "Death be not proud" a poem written by John Donne, a writer that Vivian specialized in. It's gonna be a neat paper.
So its thanksgiving, and i'm home until we eat here then i go to Adams for dinner. I like thanksgiving because its a day filled with eatting. Its snowing out too so its so much more fun. Adam hates the snow but loves thanksgiving... so hes up in the air...lol.
I shoudl go study... but who wants to on a day like today...cya!!!

Last night was excellent...I had such a blast with Lindz and Dawn. I got so drunk though, it was horrible. I had 6 twisted tea's, 1 jager shot, 1 captain and coke, and a pudding shot. I was nasty when i got home. I was puking everywhere. Everytime i lifted my head up i was sick, and i felt horrible cause Adam stayed up and waited for me to come home so we could talk. And as soon as i got home i started being sick, so we never got to talk. I thought that i would end up being the driver, and not drinking anything. I really had a blast though, but i dont think i'll be drinking that much again anytime soon. Feeling that shitty last night and all day today.
So again i'm at home watching Beavis and Butthead and feeling sick. Oh well, tomorrows another day.

I'm just sitting here thinking about how much of a bitch i must look like to my friends...
I never call them, i always think that their lieing to me to, i never go see them, i fall out of touch with people, its crazy and its all because of my job, school and Adam.
Lets take Ali for an example, i've known the girl since we were 10 and i cant even call her to ask her how Arwen is. When i called her on halloween i think that she never called me back on purpose, to show me what it feels like to be ignored, and to tell the truth it sucked. I must look like the biggest bitch for it.
Jeremy, i think that the two of us mutally fell out of touch, it seemed like jer just grew up and did his own thing and it didnt invovle me. Or any of us from Palmer. All the power to him, if it makes him happy good for him, everyone deserves to be happy.
Libby, I think that Libby pretty much did the same thing, she went to school and found something that made her happy and she grew up too. I miss her though, we had a ton of fun in high school and now we never even see each other.
Lindz, i was lucky with her. We fell out of touch and dawn got us back in touch. She been so understanding of my schoolwork that i can help but love her. I feel like i was being a bitch by not calling her to see if she wanted to go out on Saturday nights, but i couldnt get away from my damn A+P book to get to the phone. Thats why i'm soo excited about saturday, another chance to catch up on what i've missed by being too self invovled to call her.
Well i guess thats all for now... peace out!!

I havent posted in a few days... cause i dont really know what to say. Adam and i spent our day here loading my cds into itunes for our ipods, and we had pizza for dinner but the best part of the day was that i finally got my beavis and butthead dvd....40 episodes... thats like 4 hours of beavis and butthead... and trust me they never get old!! Wednesday was Lindseys bday and i cant wait to go with her and dawn on saturday night... its gonna be a blast. i havent seen dawn in forever... i cant wait.. its gonna be fun...
I talked to Ali today too and i told her that i would go out and see her on Sunday. i really dont wanna though cause i know its just gonna be Arwen screaming the whole time, thats why i dont like seeing her and i havent seen her.
Schools actually going alright for now, i have my first lab practical on wednesday... that scares me.... there is soo much stuff to study, i'm going to the review session on monday night from 6-9 and i have to bake tuesday morning at 5am, so that should be fun... my job always gets in the way of school and my social life.
I'm still loading songs on the computer and its taking forever... like its annoying how long its taking. I cant wait to get all my music on her though, i have over 1500 songs!!
Alright i'm gonna go watch more beavis and butthead and go to bed soon...night!!

my job... sucks....i sepnt half an hour on the phone with technical support for our stupid photo cake machine today... so of course i was there until like 4:15 when i was supposed to leave at 3!! My incompatent assitant manager was of course trying to help but i pretty much told him that if he didnt get the hell away from me i was going to break his fingers.
I made an 80$ cake last night... everyone was impressed with it... so my store manager told my boss that i deserved my review on time at least. So he went up stairs and did it in like 20 mins. It was kinda frustating because sue used to spend so much time with you and really wanted to let you know how much she appreciated you, with John its almost like he just does it to get it done, same with alot of his products and things. Oh well guess its better then nothing.
I never got to go to Tina's babyshower. Its alright though cause i prolly wouldnt have known anyone so i would have felt stupid. I have to work with Mary tomorrow... that sould be interesting.
I gotta go get some sleep though... night all!!!

I havent posted because i really havent had that much to say. All i've been doing is studying and working. School sucks, i got a 30 on our lab quiz today. I was total unprepaired, i didnt go to lab last week, so i didnt have a clue. It was totally my fault too. We have another class quiz on friday and i actually understand it so it shouldnt be bad.
Work sucks, my review, still havent had it. This weekend is gonna suck. I have a buttload of cakes to do this weekend, and no help. But thats typical. I have to work in the morning. I have my job!!
Well i'm going to bed.... goodnight!!!

Yea i forgot to set me clocks back last night so i was in the shower this morning and realized that it was 3:30 not 4:30, theres no way i could go back to sleep and wake up in an hour. So i just went in for 4... which wasnt bad it sucks cause i'm beyound tired now but other then that, it didnt suck too bad.
I have to go to my A+P lab tomorrow b/c i didnt go last week. So i have lab monday and wednesday this week, my two days off. But I decided to try really hard and hope to do well in A+P this semester, theres no way i could sit through it again. I have a Medcal Term test tomorrow too that i really havent studyed for yet, but its pretty basic so aslong as i learn the cards i should. I found out that we're going to be doing an internet research project in that class. Its on a medical condition that interests us. I was thinking about doing cystic fibrous b/c i dont really know much about it. But we'll see.
I'm watching the Pats game right now. Bruschi's playing which is awesome. I love that guy, hes amazing. But i'm going to go study so i can go to bed soon. Night all!

I really do feel numb... i'm tired of just being a creature of habit and doing nothing but homework, schoolwork, and work and hanging out with Adam. I need something in my life to change me. But its hard because i have so much to do with school. I cant just say " i'l go out now and come home and do it." It stinks, i want to go out with Lindz tonight, but i have a ton of studying to do and its making me crazy.
I hate my job. I just wanna say fuck u to the customers but of course i csnt. So i was supposed to get my review like 2 weeks ago, and i still havent gotten it. So i asked John about it last night, and he said that he would give it to me today. Fat chance!! He didnt even think about it. I need the money really bad too. But i feel bad telling him to give it to me now.
My brother is a dirt bag. He treats women like dirt. I cant believe that Melissa hasnt killed him. Or that she still even likes him. He flauts Kat around in front of her like shes something to be proud of.Shes really not. Everyone i've talked to thinks shes a whore. So if Kyle wants to lose an actually relationship with Melissa, then hes a fucking idiot. Grr... it makes me mad about his car.
Alright i'm gonna study my night away!!!

I dunno i still wanna drop A+P, i dont need it and i really dont want to work that hard anymore. But i cant imagine going through it all again. we'll see how i'm ding when it comes to time withdrawl.
I just got out of work and i must say that i hate my job. I cant stand stupid people anymore. I hate cake orders and i cant stand working with lazy people anymore.
So my brother is screwed. He lied to my parents about what happened to his car, the one that joe practically bought him. Its so riduclous. Well i cant think of anything else to say so cya!!

Yea so another boring day...
School sucked, i skipped lab again because of my tooth. I told Dr. Carey that i would go on monday, but i doubt i will. I have to work at 6 but i'll probably go in early to help out.
I made my schedule for next semester i just have to meet with my advisor to schedule it. I'm gonna take Abnormal Psychology, Intro to human disease, Sociology, and keyboarding. So it should better then this semester. I'm gonna drop A+P so i really dont care about it anymore, which is bad because if i really tried i could pull it off. But we'll see. We have another quiz on friday. But i'm gonna go so night all!!!